two types of smart people

first of all, i should thank God for giving me this opportunity to enter one of the best college in Indonesia! :)
my college's life is awesome, i've been through some ups and downs, but i bet that's life's all about rite? hihi.. i met so many people, with a different background, personality, religion, and etc. and i learn about how to deal with their differences, and it's quite interesting tho! :)
as times go by, i've realized how smart they are. people in my class are people who really loves to study, from those people who loves to study in library until some groups who loves to study in their groups. they're all smart. but then again, i can divided them into two groups of smart. 1st group is for people who's smart but they apparently can't share their knowledges with any other person. people like this, loves to read, introvert and kinda self fish, they want to be smart, but they dont want to teach their friends. but anyway, this isn't their fault afterall hehe.. they just simply want to be the best, but somehow i think they're really wrong for acting like that. by teaching your friends, you can really getting smarter, coz you'll remember the lesson twice better than before! well, that's my oppinion!:)
the 2nd group is for people who's really smart and want to teach their friends because they love to help, love to teach, or maybe some of them are just want to show their skill.. haha.. again, that's all their call.. but i love being in the 2nd group, which i can remember again about the lesson that i've studied before, and that's kinda making me smarter! :)
alright then, hyappy studying for you folks. remember, to learn something, you dont always need a formal school or a teacher, you can read a book, hear from any media, learn from someone else's experience, or even learn from yourself. afterall, that's all that matters. we learn something to make us better than what we've used to be. let's being the best version of ourselves. have a great day, fabulous people! :)



love,

windy

someone..

it's quite a while, that i want to write something about this particular person. this person who's being there for so long, knows me so well, but i don't know anything about him at all.
i asked my self, why people keep on looking for you, take a good care of you, but he doesn't want you to know anything about him? and i wonder..
one thing led to another, this person keep on going be there for me at the worst times of my life. everytime i look down on me, and feel that i don't deserve any better, he's shown up. being an ear and a shoulder to cry on, try to lift me up, and show me that everything will always be okay for me, coz it's me, windy.. i'll always be the wind, that blows the troubles away.. he's never fails to make me smile. he said that every troubles in my life is just a phase, it's just a hardship that will pass too.
one time, he gave me something without put any clues of the sender. but i knew that's him, the sender. and finally, he's admitted! :)
i don't know in which way i let him always being this person for me, and i don't for how much longer that he'll be always there for me. well, no matter what's going to happen in the future, i just want to say how i appreciate every lil thing you do to me, where you are! i give you a big thanks! :)

love,

windy

hello, college's life :)

hey there, how i miss writing a blog.. it's been quite busy, and i don't have any more spaces to do my own me time, myself.. yea, the college's life is almost take every minutes of my time, but that's okay tho, i had a very great time during those activities. especially, for meeting new friend.
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my friends are incredible awesome, and i'm so happy to meet those kind of people in my college. hehe.. but, the assignments are like so crazy, and those deadlines are really making me looks like a zombie. dead and walking. and working, of course.

i miss my thai boxing and yoga session, i miss having sauna, overall i miss my weekend. since i enter so called this college's life. i haven't got any weekends yet. it's not all because i have to work for my assignment only, but also i have to please some people and doing some other activities during the weekends. tired? sure.

actually, i have so much to say, but again! i'm in the middle of working my assignments right now, and i've a plan to meet my bestfriend today, so yeah that's about it. i'll tell some good things after. alright? hihi


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windy

the "click" is effortless, it's just happens

i was on the phone with someone in my past. we've talked for 3 hours non stop and i still feel so excited about the talking. yes, this someone is the best partner in discussion for me so far. i love talking to him about anything, everything that comes to my mind could be a great topic to talk about. we talked about our jobs, our achievements, friends, those fans, and how we deal about those things after the break up. i'm so glad to know that we're doing just fine during a hard time.

i never thought that we could like talking as two best friends after what happened in the past, giving each other opinions, supports, and laughing together, just like the old times. but yes, that's life. life's full of surprises. one time we can hate each other and wanting to kill one another, but in the other time, we can like being so supportive towards each other. but whatever it is. it's always nice to have someone like this, someone that you knew will understand the point of view of yours. and know exactly what to say even when you think you don't need any comments.

after some hours talking, we've realized that we've got the same problems. we haven't met anyone that could meets our standard. well, i hate to admit this, but we're kinda making one another as a bench mark. and eventhough i know that's so wrong, coz we'll never gonna find someone who has those characteristic, but i can't resist that i'm still looking for it. we know exactly that if we don't try to down grade our standard, we're gonna end up being alone. coz nobody is perfect. not even us.

do we really have to compromising our standard just to be fitted with someone else? or do we have to wait and keep believing that someday, we'll meet someone who's fit with us? how long does we have to wait? and how's it if after some times, we still don't find it and we know that we've wasted our time? does it too late? oh those questions keep on crossing my mind lately. the thing is, those things are not as scary as the thought that we're maybe belong to each other, in someway. well, i was so in love with this guy. but i was also so fucked up at that time. the thought that i might be feel that kind of things again strikes me to the core. and now i'm scared.

being negative is way easier to get out from our problem, right? i could easily blame someone or something and being paranoid my self. but well, that will only make things even worse right? and that's not the way i choose to solve this kind of problem. i have to keep moving on. no matter how scare i am with the future. but we'll never know what the future's gonna bring, and all we can do is keep walking and walking. i believe that everything happen has their own reason. and the reason must be such a good thing for us, someday. we just haven't realized it yet.

do you ever thinking about your problems and asking your self, "does it still have an impact and stressing me out a year from now?" HA! i guess it won't. yes, time always heals everything. so why's so serious? hihihi.. afterall, life's like a box of chocolate. full of surprise. we don't know what taste we get until we tasted it. enjoy the bumps. enjoy the joy. enjoy the ride. :)

oh i always love writing my blog. i don't know since when, but it always succeed to boost up my mood, and sure it helps me solve my own problem, someway.


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TORN IN BETWEEN

hello may,

just like the name, it's the month of any possibilities. it's a may(be). hahaha.. it's kinda strange because just like it's name, this month means exactly like that for me.
i have told you about my jobs in this company rite? how i love everything about it. how i feel like really belong here. but suddenly, i've got this opportunity that i've looked for sooo long, my master degree. i can't give up this opportunity either, eventhough it's really hard for me to leave this so called my comfort zone.

i haven't got any results yet, i just got my 2nd test already, and i've got in. but i dont know about the last results. i'm still hoping for the best. i wish i could be one of the best student that got a chance to get in. amiiin! :)

it's actually not the ordinary magister. it's a double degree thingy, where i can get my master degree, and also get a title as a psychologist. it's kinda cool. and i'm dying to be one of them. i can see my self bringing those books, studying, and learning new stuffs. oh it's so cool! hahahahaha..

well, but the fact that i have to resign from this office is kinda strikes me. i have a cold feet. oh help! well, i love my life rite now that i dont have to beg my parents for money anymore. i can buying stuffs, and using my own money. i love that i can stand on my ground, all by my self. BUT! now. i'm dealing with the fact that i dont have any jobs where i can get all of my money, and i have to beg to my parents to get something. it's so pathetic. i'm started to feel so poor.hahhaha

oke enough drama. i just wish that everything's going to be okay. and whatever it is, i mean whatever the results is, i just hope it would be for the best. amin! :)


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it's not that bad! :)

last night, i had a good conversation with my friends. they're a guy. at first, it was like only such a casual talking. until, i dont know, it comes from no where, we talked about "how far would a guy gonna use some tricks to attract a woman". i couldnt help but wonder, and i kept on trying to make them tell me all about it. and there, finally! all of those informations were coming through their mouths. and i stop and stare, and i'm so shocked at that time to know it all. i'm not gonna spare all the details, coz it's gonna ruins all the fun, but ladies, you should be smart enough to know who's beside you. and by that i mean, "does he love you that much? or he's just simply want to play one of those games, and get "something" from you". i choked.

and now, i feel like thinking, and dragging my self back to my past for a lil while, "does that man loves me or simply wants "something" from me?" and well, actually i dont have to ask, coz i knew already that he loves me that much, and our love was so pure and so true back then. even we had to be separated and live our lives without having each other company, but one thing for sure, i've never doubt his love for me. never have and never will! :)

i'm glad at least i know, no matter how good or bad my life rite now, even sometimes i met the ups and down, but some lil part of my heart knows that he'll always be there. loving me. yes, eventhough i'm not feeling anything towards him rite now, but this time, i'd like to say thank you very much for loving me so true.

see, i've finally see all of these things in a bigger frame. and i forgave him as a whole. for doing so many things that hurted me. well, i've done so many bad things to him also, and i'm not perfect. not even close. but let me make this straight, i've never meant to do those bad things. i did love him so much back then. and i'm really sorry for causing him a broken heart. i do. hope wherever he is rite now, weather he knew about this or never will, i hope he's doing fine there. i wish him nothing, but happiness in life! and i do hope he could be as happy as i am rite now! :')


love,

windy

this office

hey there, you folks! hehe..

kinda miss me lately? actually well, i posted some blogs lately, but i dont feel like it to post. hehe
but today i feel like telling story about my company. yeahs. hihi..

as you knew already that i love my job so much. i couldn't find the rite words to say it, but i just simply love it. i don't know, is it because of they paid me well, or the environment, or i just simply belong here? well, i'm just simply love being here. and i thank God, after several places i've been trying to look for a place for me, where i could like singing my own songs, with my own company. and speaking about those things, this is the perfect place, where i feel really belong here. and rite now, that's what matters.

after like 6 months working here, i realized that this is what i've been always searching for, a place that always welcome, and the environment that supports without trying to change the way i am. i am in peace. i love my self when i'm surrounded by them, i found my true friends here, and i love them. maybe someday in my youth or childhood, i must have done something good, or i just simply too lucky? and i thank God that i have this life. i really couldn't asking for more. alhamdulillah..


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