turning 23

i'm turning 23 tomorrow.. it's my sacred age! why? i actually dont know why or since when i always think that when i'm turning 23, i'll be a very great woman of my dreams in this year.. hehe.. i'll be the one who gets all of those happiness, like dream jobs, best friends, and sure the one.. can i have all of them in one year? :')

..a lil bit flash back..

last year, i've been called by someone, and made me cried all over the night! yes, in the night of my birthday! that was like the worst birthday ever! i've been through sooooo many bad things last year.. i'm so blessed that i've Allah SWT that never leave me, and sure family and bestfriends! i love them sooooo much! i can say, "i won't be that strong if i dont have them back then"..

but things changed, that's life.. afterall we're just have to play this scenario! yes my friend, sometimes it's sweet, but in the other times it's bitter.. but this is a reality, it's not a dream or a night mare, and you have to face it! i'm glad to say that i can through those life's obstacles in that year perfectly! :)
now, here i am, a 23 years old lady! i've been doing some wishes for this year that have to be done may Allah granted all of them! :)
3 wishes that i want to have in this year are :

1. dream job
i want to have a dream job that i'll never gonna leave. the job that simply makes me more alive, the thing is the definition of dream job for me is, a job that i love and i'm so good at it. and sure i hope that i can get a great salary as well.. hehe..

2. another language
i always think about having another language course, but still dont know which language that i'd like to choose! but these weeks, i kinda want to learn spanish! well, that's quite easy and many countries are spoken spanish! hehe.. so, i'll learn this language this year! hope i can master the language! ihiyy! :))

3. the real "the one"
this isn't the least because of i've mentioned this the last! its just because it's the most important thing and sure will be the hard one to achieve. having "the one" isn't like only have a boyfriend, but the one that you really want spend the rest of you life with, the one that you want to grow old with.. and the most important is, it's build to the last! <3<3

and finally, it's my birthday! happy birthday, me! ohh yeah, not forget to mention! i put the "UP" picture in my bbm display, it's for reminding me that someday i'm gonna be like her, i'm gonna be old and weak.. but i hope i'll find someone who will stand next to me, and hold my hands, and be there til my dying day! :') and also remind me that someday i can't do anything anymore because i'm too weak, so that's why i keep doing my "have to do" list, to make me remember all of my dreams and try to catch up with it before it's too late! :)
once again, happy 23rd birthday, me! wish me have a great day! <3
may Allah always lights my paths and granted all of my wishes! amiiin ya Allah! :)

ps. it's a great date! 080910 isn't it perfect? hihi..



love,


windygitawulandhari

a mistake

here i am, again, with *still* some several questions in my head! hehe..


by looking at the tittle, you should know what's the thing that i'd like to talk here..
yes, its about a mistake.. a mistake.. its not because that i did something really bad lately, but i'm just thinking about our everyday life..
how often that we've done our mistakes, and forget about it then do exactly the same mistake all over again? have we ever learnt from those mistakes? or mistakes are just like a common thing that we dont even care if its happens again?
we're just simply being too busy to try to cover it up, to pretend to be a saint, but in the other hand, the mistakes will continue happens.. and its not right, its wrong..
i know i'm not that good, i did some bad things, i failed, i hurted ppl feeling, i insulted, i cried, and i learnt, yes that's the most important, i learnt something from those mistakes..
for now on, i think i want to be bold, to admit my mistakes in the past, and face the future with smile.. at least, i made a note for my self, to never ever do the same mistakes anymore.. and i hope, well not only hope, but as simply as i'll do it! now! :)


love,


windy

is it just all about how great you can bargain?

here's another silly thought of mine! :)

hey there folks, have you ever been in relationship? i don't know since when, i start to keep wondering about how to make a relationship works? i somehow believe that relationship could be succeed or not, is based on what we've agreed at the first time..
you know, at the very first time, before we really sure that we're going to have a relationship with someone, we're really have to think about how well we knew this someone, how well we can get along with this someone, and etc.. and we sort of making our own "rules", and try to adjust that into someone's elses rules. and when its works on both of you, then BAM! you are now in a relationship! quite easy eh?:)

but what i'm really concerning here is, is it just all about how great you can bargain? or about which one is having more advantages in that relationship? it's just strikes me out! PATHETIC, isn't it? but then again, in some levels, it is true! i hate to admit this, but somehow, when i questioning about this, i always end up with agreeing with those statements.. hmm.. it's a good thing tho, if you think you can connected those things with commitment! yeahs, commitment is good! hehe.. but still, is it all just about that? where's love, caring, sweet talk, and stuffs? does the commitment is making those stuffs gone? if its a yes, then being a marriage couple, where commitment is above everything is really such a disaster eh? hehe..
well, i'm not saying i'm afraid of that commitment thingy, or too chicken for being a mariage couple! i love being tight into relationship, i love rules, commitment, and everything around it! hehe.. but yes, then again! i'm just a newbie in this full serious commitment of life! and asking so many questions lead me to it closer! errrr.. am i? hehe..
oke then, i'm out! :)


love,


your author

JEALOUSY AND COMMUNICATION

jealousy.. have you ever feel it? how far would you go to show it to someone else? it's an interesting thing to be discussed, i guess..

Each person would have felt jealous, the only difference is in what level the jealous is? well, i mean this is a jealous for a spouse, in particullar ..
many things are affecting the level of jealousy, here's some of the examples : the reason why we are jealous, the people that makes us feel it, how long we have been in a relationship, and how far we "did things" in that relationship.. and sure there's more things that also follow the influence of jealousy!

i kinda in the middle of couple's drama now, i mean the drama of jealousy thingy! i dont want to spoil someone's misfortune here. but sometimes, my curiousity's killing me! i end up with asking so many times, "WHY"? it isnt because s/he's not suppose to feel it, but i dont think someone in that quality could have done something that far, just to show her/his spouse they love them that much!

i think, all of those misunderstanding things are because of we cant find a way to communicate. for me, communication is like EVERYTHING! we can tell someone what we really want and let them understand by finding the rite way to say it.. yes, correct me if i'm wrong anyway, maybe few people said that love is conquers all odds, but how can you love a person if you barely even talk to him/her? it's for me like IMPOSSIBLE things to do!

hey come on, if there's something that you hate about your spouse, just let him/her knows! tell them! being angry, insulting, and end up with crying wont solve your problems! trust me! you can talk nicely, and find the way to solve it, TOGETHER! :)

so for the couple in fight out there, remember one thing! do u really want to lose him/her? if you dont, then TALK! and please dont let anyone elses got stuck in your way! it wont do any good! okay then, good luck! hope you guys are a happy couple, wherever you are! :)


love,


your author

the frequency

hay guys,
welcome back to another silly thoughts of mine! hehe..
this time, i'd like to share about my perception for the word "soulmate".. uhhh its a BIG WORD eh? hehe.. so many books wrote about this subject, try to explain more about it.. "what's soulmate?, who's gonna be ur soulmate?, where u can find ur soulmate?, etc" HA! it's for me, too much to take, too difficult to understand.. well, i'm just a girl in my early 20's who's looking for a simple and happy life, i guess i dont need those kind of definitions! hehe..

i finally get my own definition for that "soulmate" word! the simplest explaination that i could ever given to myself! i always think that when we find our soulmate, it wont take much efforts, it wont make u feels like "whooooo-ing and booooo-ing" at the same time, its just happens! i mean it doesnt need a fuss situation, a "cry and laugh out loud" moments, infinite time, and another influential things, it's just happens, u just "click" to him/her.

and i know, it's called "being in the same frequency". you know, when u hear a radio, and you feel like "hmmm this tunes is really fits me", and you keep on going listen to it rite? and for me, find a soulmate is like find the rite tunes for us! we keep on turning the radio's tunes, til u get the tunes that perfectly fits you! i'm not saying it's an easy thing to do! but well, when we find it, we dont have to do those fuss thing, you just knew it! and its really feels like "home"..

so guys, at last, i'll take a note for self, and its okay for you guys to follow! "dont be stupid wasting your time for someone that "too much to take", coz i think when we find a "same frequency" person, they wont let us do those fussy things, and feels stupid for having those feelings for them, find someone that could make you feel love and be loved at the same time without having doubt at all cost, coz you knew they're really that mattter for you!"

love,

your author

the princess and the frog

I've got things to think.. let's try to define it on words..
if a princess really want to have a happy ending, she has to marry a prince rite? at least that's what we've already knew, something that we've dreamt of, rite ladies? hehe.. well, who's a prince anyway? i always thought that a prince is the rite frog, yes! the rite frog who's been kissed by us and all of sudden become a prince! haha.. i know it's sounds so silly! you can laugh at me now! hehe.. but hello, in a real life sometimes, i think it's true.. let's analogizing a frog as in a "wrong man", i mean an unsuitable man in a perfect time, suitable man in a wrong time, or both are wrong.. they're just "the frog", a frog that no matter how many times we kiss, they'll be the same! they just aren't meant to be for us! that take! and well, at last i end up questioning about, "how long does it take for me to kept kissing a frog til i met my very own prince?" i wonder.. :)

the lion's awake!

hay guys, so long we didnt catch up!i almost forgot about this blog.. yes, too much things are going on lately, and writting a blog is simply something that easily forgotten.. hehe..
well, i just want to say hello to all of you.. promise that i'll deliver some of my thoughts to you guys, soon! yes, as soon as i complete this work things! :):):)
ps. i miss you anyway, i miss the moments when writting is one of the way i use to kill the time! hehehe..
see you again soon on another silly thoughts of mine! chiao!