it's not that bad! :)

last night, i had a good conversation with my friends. they're a guy. at first, it was like only such a casual talking. until, i dont know, it comes from no where, we talked about "how far would a guy gonna use some tricks to attract a woman". i couldnt help but wonder, and i kept on trying to make them tell me all about it. and there, finally! all of those informations were coming through their mouths. and i stop and stare, and i'm so shocked at that time to know it all. i'm not gonna spare all the details, coz it's gonna ruins all the fun, but ladies, you should be smart enough to know who's beside you. and by that i mean, "does he love you that much? or he's just simply want to play one of those games, and get "something" from you". i choked.

and now, i feel like thinking, and dragging my self back to my past for a lil while, "does that man loves me or simply wants "something" from me?" and well, actually i dont have to ask, coz i knew already that he loves me that much, and our love was so pure and so true back then. even we had to be separated and live our lives without having each other company, but one thing for sure, i've never doubt his love for me. never have and never will! :)

i'm glad at least i know, no matter how good or bad my life rite now, even sometimes i met the ups and down, but some lil part of my heart knows that he'll always be there. loving me. yes, eventhough i'm not feeling anything towards him rite now, but this time, i'd like to say thank you very much for loving me so true.

see, i've finally see all of these things in a bigger frame. and i forgave him as a whole. for doing so many things that hurted me. well, i've done so many bad things to him also, and i'm not perfect. not even close. but let me make this straight, i've never meant to do those bad things. i did love him so much back then. and i'm really sorry for causing him a broken heart. i do. hope wherever he is rite now, weather he knew about this or never will, i hope he's doing fine there. i wish him nothing, but happiness in life! and i do hope he could be as happy as i am rite now! :')


love,

windy