i was on the phone with someone in my past. we've talked for 3 hours non stop and i still feel so excited about the talking. yes, this someone is the best partner in discussion for me so far. i love talking to him about anything, everything that comes to my mind could be a great topic to talk about. we talked about our jobs, our achievements, friends, those fans, and how we deal about those things after the break up. i'm so glad to know that we're doing just fine during a hard time.
i never thought that we could like talking as two best friends after what happened in the past, giving each other opinions, supports, and laughing together, just like the old times. but yes, that's life. life's full of surprises. one time we can hate each other and wanting to kill one another, but in the other time, we can like being so supportive towards each other. but whatever it is. it's always nice to have someone like this, someone that you knew will understand the point of view of yours. and know exactly what to say even when you think you don't need any comments.
after some hours talking, we've realized that we've got the same problems. we haven't met anyone that could meets our standard. well, i hate to admit this, but we're kinda making one another as a bench mark. and eventhough i know that's so wrong, coz we'll never gonna find someone who has those characteristic, but i can't resist that i'm still looking for it. we know exactly that if we don't try to down grade our standard, we're gonna end up being alone. coz nobody is perfect. not even us.
do we really have to compromising our standard just to be fitted with someone else? or do we have to wait and keep believing that someday, we'll meet someone who's fit with us? how long does we have to wait? and how's it if after some times, we still don't find it and we know that we've wasted our time? does it too late? oh those questions keep on crossing my mind lately. the thing is, those things are not as scary as the thought that we're maybe belong to each other, in someway. well, i was so in love with this guy. but i was also so fucked up at that time. the thought that i might be feel that kind of things again strikes me to the core. and now i'm scared.
being negative is way easier to get out from our problem, right? i could easily blame someone or something and being paranoid my self. but well, that will only make things even worse right? and that's not the way i choose to solve this kind of problem. i have to keep moving on. no matter how scare i am with the future. but we'll never know what the future's gonna bring, and all we can do is keep walking and walking. i believe that everything happen has their own reason. and the reason must be such a good thing for us, someday. we just haven't realized it yet.
do you ever thinking about your problems and asking your self, "does it still have an impact and stressing me out a year from now?" HA! i guess it won't. yes, time always heals everything. so why's so serious? hihihi.. afterall, life's like a box of chocolate. full of surprise. we don't know what taste we get until we tasted it. enjoy the bumps. enjoy the joy. enjoy the ride. :)
oh i always love writing my blog. i don't know since when, but it always succeed to boost up my mood, and sure it helps me solve my own problem, someway.
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